Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Hi, I'm Sonya & I'm a Non-Smoker :o)

I could tell you that this no smoking thang has been a breeze & Chantix has just taken all my craving away and I never walk around scratchin & feenin like a crackhead lookin for a crumb and I'm a totally new person who's never in a bad mood because I have a taste for something but I can't satisfy those desires and sometimes to take my craving away I have to just pour the contents of lil salt packets on my tongue and now I'm swollen like a balloon freshly filled chock full of helium... But hell I'd be tellin a baldfaced lie! I've done absolutely wonderful in my book. I don't know who stops by to read & doesn't comment, but I don't think my followers would know what I'm talking about. You guys just don't seem like the smokin' kind. Anyhoo, I was a HEAVY smoker. On a bad day, I'd smoke as much as a pack and a half of cigs. Newport 100's in the box to be exact. That's 30 cigarettes in one day. A normal day, I smoked almost a full pack, so I'd inhale the contents of 15 cigs daily. And I have Asthma. And I know that's horrible. Thinking about it makes me want to cry, it just doesn't take the craving away unfortunately. I've been taking Chantix about 3 or 4 weeks now. I only have 2 weeks worth of medicine left after this week, so, I hope this feeling is gone by then. During the first week, I think I may have smoked about 5 cigs a day. The following week I'd indulge in 1 or 2 at the most a day. After this week, I have considered myself a nonsmoker. When I get antsy & start craving, I remind myself that I am a nonsmoker. If I slip & have a puff or two, I continue to remind myself that I'm a nonsmoker. I am so determined this time to see this through. I didn't realize how labored and wheezy my breathing was until I began to heal. I have had terrible chest pains & coughing fits, and I know from talking to other people that this is just a side effect of stopping. About the 2nd week, everytime I coughed, I swore I saw smoke come from my lungs. It would smell like smoke. Since I've not been smoking, my food tastes different, I can smell things again. And smoke stinks to high hell. It's still hard... So hard, but I've got to succeed at this 1 thing. It's a matter of life & death.

7 comments:

  1. Good for you! I'm proud of you. I cannot even imagine the withdrawal stages but I bet it's hard. Keep up the effort and take one step at a time girl!
    ~Toodles

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  2. Awesome Sonya! I'm not a smoker but my mom and dad were smokers for years!!! Oh, and my grandma too. However one day they just stopped; cold turkey. My mom and dad first. Then some years later my grandma. I seem to think it was because we were real jerks as little kids.(me, my sis, and little brother) Everytime they lit up we would cough and choke and then roll around on the floor like little dying insects with our legs in the air. Yes, we were that bad. My mom gets sick to this day from cigarette smoke. How funny what happens when you are detoxified. Stay strong my sista!

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  3. Good for you mama!!! I'm so glad you made that decision! && thank you so much for stopping by! MUCH love ma...

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  4. I'll keep you in my prays. I know that it is a hard habit to break. I know you can do it.

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  5. Congratulations on your success. I like that you remind yourself you are a non-smoker even after you slip. It's like when you're trying to eat healthy and you slip. The best thing to do is get right back on track and leave that slip in the past. I wish you the best of luck on your journey =o)

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  6. I am proud of you for making an effort to improve your health. It may seem very hard, but we are all pulling for you. I will keep you in my prayers that this journey will ease up and you will make it. Many blessings.

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  7. Congratulations and more power to you. You're going to succeed because of your incredible determination. Best of luck and best of health to you, girl!

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