Monday, October 13, 2008

My Purpose - How I've changed

This is the way I looked before. I was NOT happy with any part of my life. I walked around smiling, laughing, but sort of in a fog. I was going through the motions. I never felt like I was actually being myself. I started a journey years before, but I was always big on what "other people" said, so I always gave in. On August 21, 2007, I went natural. When I walked out of the salon, I held my head high and I cried and I thanked the Lord because I felt free! That was one of the best days of my life! I have totally embraced this natural journey this time around. I feel like this is my forever thing. A woman's hair is her glory. We all know that you can be dressed all Model-esque & if you can't get that hair just right, it'll screw with your whole day. My hair, My Glory, (Polly as you Fotkians know her), my first year of nappiness, was my 12 step program to acceptance. I don't look in the mirror any longer and say, "Ugh, I hate myself, I'm ugly, I hate my hair, I'm nothing." I now think the total opposite. I am beautiful, by MY standards. I love myself, all my curves, my legs just go on and on. Lol, I enjoy ME now. I LOVE MY HAIR! If you accept God as your savior and you know that we all are made in his own image, then how can you be ashamed of the napps, kinks, coils, curls, waves that he blessed you with. I am a reflection of HIM. He created this lovely, full, healthy head of hair and I appreciate him for it. Since going natural, I have started to be more mindful of what I put into my body and on my body. I'm not perfect, nor will I ever be, but I'm more accepting of my flaws. That's what sets me aside and makes me different from everyone else. I know that not a lot of you know, but I am a smoker. I also have asthma and type 2 diabetes. I've begun to takes the steps to quit. This is a part of my journey, my healing process. My body is my temple and I was only blessed with one. I've tried so many times before and failed and I need you as my cheerleaders to keep me on the right track.
Proverbs 31:10 Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies.
Don't you just love the bliss? That's called acceptance!